Today as I was driving to work I had a rare opportunity to think. For the first time in a long while, I was not on the phone with my husband figuring out what was for dinner, I wasn’t talking to my mom about how the kids were behaving, I wasn’t reading emails, I wasn’t on a conference call, I was just driving to work. And as I drove to work, I thought of all the things that needed to get done and all the demands on my time – the kids, our parents, our colleagues, our work, our community and so on and so forth. I was thinking about my schedule for the week. How I would squeeze in 50 hours of work, a workout or two, baseball practice, a night with the kids, getting ready to go out of town for a week etc. ?
As I thought of all that needed to get done in a week, I began to get a little overwhelmed. There just was not enough time in the day. I want to make the most of my time at home and enjoy our kids that are growing up way too fast, visit with my friends and family. Just then I realized how lucky I really am. My life is crazy. My family is crazy, but I love every minute of it. I wouldn’t trade it for the world. I am lucky these are my ‘problems’.
It isn’t a bad thing to try to figure out how to squeeze everything. It’s just the opposite – I am incredibly lucky I have so much good in my life that I can barely squeeze it in. I have kids that are healthy and happy and want to spend time with me. I have an incredible mom that lives right down the road from me. I have the sweetest most charming niece and sister and brother-in-law are in town that I get to spend quality time with on a regular basis. I have a rewarding career. I have friends to relax and recharge with. I am so lucky to have all these demands on my time. And while I have generally look at it as overwhelming and incredibly demanding, I sat there today and just felt blessed. This is a good life. This is what it is all about. It is so easy to cut up get caught up and how demanding life can be sometimes we forget what the demands are really for. Now I can’t promise I will never complain again, this brief moment of reflection has been enough to make me feel at peace today. I am so lucky. I love my crazy, lovely life.